I've struggled a lot with my love for my hometown recently and the fact that no matter what I do, it's not the place for me anymore. I wrote recently on twitter about the fact that my local subway station is completely inaccessible and how I was going to write to my representatives about it. … Continue reading I know you’ve supported me for a long time, somehow I’m not impressed.
I'm realizing now that I put way way too much pressure on myself to connect with people when I moved back in with my parents and broke up with my ex. I've had a lot of relationships fizzle out or end in tears lately and I realize that it's a codependency issue. Years of abuse … Continue reading The C Word
I've realized recently that my memory doesn't have to be perfect anymore. For as long as I can remember I've felt pressure to record everything as accurately as possible and to maintain as much as control of my memory as I can because of abuse. It's one of those topics that I don't see spoken … Continue reading Total Recall or How I stopped worrying about getting my ass to Mars.
I wrote about my first feedback session a bit here, and I've been sort of loathe to revisit the second one. And that's because of this thread. I haven't really addressed this in a long format but it just occurred to me recently that getting my diagnosis was a very traumatic experience. I went in … Continue reading The Feedback Session: Part Two: Electric Boogaloo
I've never really embraced the title or description of woman. Well, I guess I did briefly when I first started learning about feminism and womanism. I felt a kinship with all these people and our shared experiences. And then little by little as I expanded my circle of friends to include non-binary/genderqueer/neutrois people I realized, … Continue reading Sometimes you feel like a girl, sometimes you don’t…
The Obsessive Joy of Autism by Julia Bascom My rating: 5 of 5 stars I feel like this should be required reading for recently diagnosed kids and adults as well as for the neurotypicals in their life. I rarely see books that talk about the joy I feel when engaging in things related to my … Continue reading The Obsessive Joy of Autism: A Review
I've done a lot of really good things for my health lately but I think the healthiest thing I've done so far is cut my ex completely out of my life. I've mentioned here and there that I was in an emotionally abusive relationship for eight years but I've only realized recently that I haven't … Continue reading Unpacking Heavy Boots. (TW: Emotional Abuse)
We're poppin' big bottles because I finally got my official diagnosis! I am on the books as autistic, friends. It still feels unreal. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm done, that the struggle is over and I no longer have to stave off meltdowns, keep my hands from shaking and watch my words … Continue reading *Russell Watson singing* It’s been a long road…
I had my feedback session with the two neuropsychs that have been working on diagnosing me with autism yesterday. Walking in I had this feeling that they weren't gonna diagnose me and I was right. They diagnosed me with non-verbal learning disability aka NVLD. When I was sitting there, and the neuropsych that tested me … Continue reading The Feedback Session: Part One
So I've tallied it up and from the beginning of my process of seeking a diagnosis for autism, and I've been at this for about six months. In January of this year, I went to a local counseling center looking for a therapist and a psychiatrist that could help me find the path to a … Continue reading The reckoning is upon me. (Or will be soon.)